You Are Worth It

4 Sep

I sometimes feel as if you’ve spent most of your life surrounded by people who told you over and over that you weren’t good enough, or smart enough, or trying hard enough. These people seem to flock to you, maybe because they know that, head bowed and ashamed, you’ll listen to what they say. Some of them might be kind-hearted, trying to push you or fix you with tough love, while others just want someone to hurt and humiliate. Whatever their motivation, I wish I’d been there when they said these things, so that I could have raised a ruckus, shouted them down, told them how very wrong they were.

The real kicker is that you blame yourself for listening to these people; you honestly believe that you should have known better, should have held your own. Having grown up in a world that loves to quote Eleanor Roosevelt on how no one can make anyone feel inferior without their consent, you think that it’s your fault that these spiteful words and ideas crawled under your skin and wove themselves into the fabric of your being. It’s not, though. It’s not your fault. No one could ever endure that much raw malice without starting to doubt their own self worth.

You tell yourself that you’re nothing but wasted potential, when in fact the exact opposite is true. All of your potential is still intact; you still have every possibility of achieving the things that you want to achieve. That’s not to say that it will be easy, or that it will happen right away – I’m not discounting your struggles, both past and present. But still. A sixty-four-year-old woman just swam from Cuba to Florida after trying to do so for thirty five years. There is no statute of limitation on dreams.

You think that no one notices when you get up to leave the room or slip away early from the party, but we do. We all do. We miss you when you’re gone; we miss your laughter, your warmth, your kindness. We miss your bad jokes. Most of all, though, we miss your steadiness, your solid, comforting presence. We miss you.

You want so badly to keep everyone else safe. You’re the quiet fixer, the person in the background making sure the show runs smoothly, but you’re also the first person to stand up and say something when others are threatened or in danger. You think nothing of disregarding your own safety or well-being if someone else needs your help. You are always there to help.

You are astonishingly loving and protective of so many people, without ever feeling as though you deserve any love or protection for yourself. You put yourself in the line of fire over and over again, though you would never let anyone else return the favour. You act as though you have a debt to pay to the universe, although you’re not quite sure why or how. You act as though the only way that you can justify taking up real estate on this planet is by living only for other people. But you don’t have any debt to pay, and you are just as worthy of our love as we are of yours.

You deserve everything good in this life, starting with a person-shaped space that you can occupy without feeling guilty or inadequate. You have so much worth, not just because of the wonderful things that you do, but because of who you are and the particular talents and skills that you possess. You are worthy because you are you –Β a person who always thinks of others first, who keeps their head down and uncomplainingly does their work, who delights in bringing a smile to someone else’s face. In room full of people, children and animals are drawn to you first because they know that they can trust you. We all trust you.

When we run into you on the street, or catch sight of you across a crowded bar, or watch you quietly, hesitantly slip in through the door, we are always so happy to see you. We are always so happy that you are here.

You deserve this, all of this.

You deserve our delight in you.

You are worth it.

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36 Responses to “You Are Worth It”

  1. armsakimbobook September 4, 2013 at 2:44 am #

    Stunning, moving, breathtaking. You never cease to amaze me. I hope you take your own advice – you deserve it.

  2. mrsa122995 September 4, 2013 at 3:21 am #

    wow. yes. breathtaking.

  3. Jen September 4, 2013 at 3:57 am #

    Thank you. Always.

  4. Whoredinary September 4, 2013 at 4:17 am #

    A truly beautiful piece. Thank you ❀

  5. Andrew Hughes September 4, 2013 at 5:39 am #

    You are a wonderful woman. Thank-you.

  6. Stacie Bebber September 4, 2013 at 6:01 am #

    Thank you. Stunning indeed!

  7. Writer / Mummy September 4, 2013 at 6:22 am #

    “There is no statute of limitation on dreams.”

    Beautiful. And all back at you x

  8. Bastet September 4, 2013 at 6:27 am #

    Reblogged this on Bastet and Sekhmet and commented:
    Know someone like this…who deserves to be supported…you know, the one who is always there for others, and often is alone…

  9. Bastet September 4, 2013 at 6:27 am #

    Thanks, reblogged and sent it to a friend on Facebook. A Great Post!

  10. stunnedandstunted September 4, 2013 at 7:29 am #

    Thank you so much, I love this kind-hearted post πŸ™‚

  11. brutalelegance September 4, 2013 at 8:21 am #

    You single handedly restore my faith in the human race everyday. You’re dazzling you are.

  12. EimearOC September 4, 2013 at 8:51 am #

    I did need to hear this today (wednesday morning where I am)! Thank you. X

  13. Merry September 4, 2013 at 10:47 am #

    Absolutely stunningly written piece! It feels as if you taped my inner voice and played it back for me to hear. Thank-you…

  14. Meg September 4, 2013 at 11:14 am #

    This was the perfect piece on an imperfevtt morning. I really needed this today. Thankyou.

  15. Baddest Mother Ever September 4, 2013 at 11:36 am #

    Yes yes and yes! Thank you for this gift.

  16. ardenrr September 4, 2013 at 1:31 pm #

    I love this…

  17. Burns the Fire September 4, 2013 at 1:39 pm #

    So lovely, thank you for this.

  18. NotAPunkRocker September 4, 2013 at 3:01 pm #

    Thank you so much for this.

  19. ramy7 September 4, 2013 at 3:11 pm #

    Reblogged this on My little Happy Family and commented:
    As someone who has suffered from depression who recovered and is currently married to someone who has major depression this is very much something I wish I could convince the entire world of.

  20. thecuriousalouette September 4, 2013 at 3:30 pm #

    I needed that. I have a huge problem with not thinking that my needs are important and fearing that things can’t keep going well very long.

  21. theediblegirl September 4, 2013 at 3:37 pm #

    Reblogged this on searching for an afflated orgasm of the heart.

  22. entredosaguascwb September 4, 2013 at 4:44 pm #

    so true… loved it!

  23. marinagranda September 4, 2013 at 7:28 pm #

    This text is… perfect. Every part, every word… perfectly expresses a feeling that itΒ΄s so beautiful that makes positively inspire all who read this. It is very beautiful, I LOVE IT.

  24. Writer / Mummy September 4, 2013 at 9:05 pm #

    Reblogged this on writermummy and commented:
    I started the day reading this post. At bedtime I felt the need to read it again. Beautiful words.

  25. Lynne September 4, 2013 at 10:12 pm #

    Thank you for writing and sharing this. It certainly speaks to me today.

  26. robyn mcneil (@birdiebent) September 5, 2013 at 6:05 pm #

    So much love.

  27. Megra12 September 5, 2013 at 10:50 pm #

    This was wonderfully and beautifully written.

  28. mathandphysicstutor September 7, 2013 at 7:02 pm #

    Thank you

  29. Roxann Miller September 8, 2013 at 6:48 pm #

    And…..yet again I feel that you are speaking for me. Brought me to tears. Very touching

  30. Groupie for the Underdog September 9, 2013 at 4:16 pm #

    Made me teary. In the very best way πŸ™‚

  31. TheMistyLady September 15, 2013 at 6:24 am #

    Reblogged this on The Misty Lady.

  32. TheMistyLady September 15, 2013 at 6:26 am #

    i see myself through your words.. thank you

  33. mik9121 October 7, 2013 at 4:55 am #

    Thankyou for this. I agree that we are living I world full of people who are questioning their worth, wondering about what their value is and trying to find identity. People are so valuable though, and must be told that they can incredible worth.
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